Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Broken......Fragmented.......

Of late why....I myself don't know Ive started to hate this world around me..I feel al broken up & can sense n see for myself being fragmented & shattered into several pieces..Why is this happening??? I seriouslyyy don't have any idea..Is there just no one who can hear my scream & see my condition.........











No sympathy needed but I need someone to listen to me when I wanna speak,allow me my space,allow me to do things at 'my will' n not force me do so,love me unconditionally when all hve left me n gone n none to turn to when they r needed,to pacify,cool me down.Goddamnit how I hate my life now........it has been never so lonely,moorse as now n don't I have anyone to say.............IM THERE THEN WHY FEAR....is no arms I can go rushing into n just cry n scream my pains out......How to torture my family & friends..don't they have their own life n priorities,I wanna see them happy and Im not blamin them for this happening of mine,bt this whole frustration & depression has it made me all the more selfish n demanding...?????maybe no.....or maybe yes.......!!!!!!!
I want to arise above the confusion I want to lead my life........Please help me someone....
And once again saying it is not pinpointing to al those close to me nor my family neither my frnds....It juz a outburst of my inner self!!!!!!!! I know u guys will alwyz b thr 2 back me up still dunno know wtz dis happening....:O??????????

Once again a biggggg Sorry for such a depressing post guys......didnt mean to hurt u pple....

Sunday, June 17, 2007

My Lil Baby.......

Now how do I start writng about this...Hmmm...actly this post to present before my Frnds..
One of d luvliest..cutest Gift which I possess , & which is given by My Best Friend..n so holds quite an important place in my heart..:D by the time u'l know whom Im talking about...:P
So herez presenting....My Lil Foxy Woxy..cudnt get a nicer name Akki...:P sho sorry sweetie.Wel lemme actually the story behind this thing...wait hold on first hve a look at my Lil baby..
How's it guys & gals.....Im sure you'l fall in luv with it...now for the story....
The other day(dunno remember which day :P) Akki & I were planning to meet up as we had to go out to buy some cds & some other stuffs.Now while waiting for Akki to come I reached a bit early so..:P there is this small street side hawker stall...itz open air stall so sells small electronic goods like pocket radio..cable wires,mobile stands,holders,cases,keyrings..n not fugget these differents shaped,multi coloured n various mobile rings which u can make your simple mobile even more beautiful...'As a gal v need accessory to adorn oursleves doesn't our mobile need one too to match our personality ..':P .Jokes apart...So till Akki comes,I decided to see if something excites my sight...n just then my phone rang & it was the message tone & I saw it was message frm Akki dear..n it said tht Mads I'l be a bit late baby.catch u in 10mins..So now how to kill my time till then I cnt just stand n look like a stupid :P so decided to go n explore the shop as I decided earlier..Now I hve been seeing this shop from rite the time itz being put up..it ws about 2mths back..& mine & Akki's favourite shop..as keep buyng ourselves :D some stuffs..but that day it was differnt I did see the regular stuffs but added to them were these rheallyyyyy cute & chweet mobile rings in different shapes n the most of all which caught my attention were those which were like stuff toys..they had dogs,cats,fox,rabit n some othr 5 animals..in either blue or brown colors,but I found the dog & fox rheallyyyyyy cute...:)n just when I was gonna ask the shopkeeper about itz price I felt a thump at my back it was Akki,n she remarked 'Oh ho Mads u strtd again'& also informed me we were to meet Ishqie (Ishita- our another frnd) then Ishqie also by then came n I showed her n Akki what I found..n Ishqie liked them instantly & suprisingly Akki liked it too..(blimy) oh for all those who dunno know this lemme tell ya me n Aki totally opposites (needs a big explanation) wil do that later :P & for the first time I said Akki puhleez sweets 'Mujhe aisa ek kharidke de dena' Akki said Acha re ok ok..dekhungi jab pocket money ayega toh..:).Then told just was kidding leave it..n left the shop n proceeded for our work.
Now the story forwards itself to 2 days aheadI had to go out wid my Grandma to some of her frnd's place n was to meetup Akki around 6pm to give her some Cds which I had to burn for her..but by the time I got out of the place I had being it was already some 6.45pm so I called up Akki n said her today won't b possible coz both of us will run late to home otherwise but she said No Mads I'l wait U come over to our usual place,I want to meet u re..I wondered what could hve happended..anyways I conviced my Grandma that wil b back home soon [this task is vry difficult :)] so it took me 5mins to mke up a story n convice her to have me dropped at the place where I was supposed to meet Akki..so I reached & again since by car was dropped off fast & soon after 2mins Akki came n she had my notes copy n she says Take gal n i saw on top of the note was.........This cute lil Fox.......:D mannnnnnnnnn i was speechless n I knew if went now to thank this gal shez gonna kill me..n say Mads u na.....!! so i hugged her n she says 'Ok ok meri ma happy na'...'& said Ab ghar chalen maam...'.I was like kya iske liye gawdddddd....Luv uuuuuuuuuuu sweetheart............Do I need to explain more...I hope no..:P.
Last but not the least.....2 more pics of my lil Foxy....